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stephen makes a cute chibi ^_~
Saturday, April 28, 2001 03:27 a.m. if you haven't looked already, go to stephen's site and look at his kawaii chibi. it's so cute!

last night, i dreamt about animals... i was walking around a lot of staircases, and bill was leaning against the wall, dressed all in blue in one of the corners where the staircases meet, and he was snapping his fingers and scat singing (not unusual for bill)... when i asked "where is doris?" (his guide-dog) he replied "she's busy, and when she's ready, she'll come for me." and he was so content! and i'd find doris and she'd be all busy and doing things dogs do (like sniffing grass and such) and she told me things, i don't remember what. @_@;;; and there was also a snake in my dream, and the snake was a poisonous snake that loved me. he guarded my room (which was at the top of all these stairs) and he let me stroke his belly, and he let me wear him like a bracelet (a la jenni, who wears her snake as a necklace.)

on a sadder note, i'd like to take a moment right now to honor the memory of jenni's beloved rooster, roshi, who was killed by a dog earlier this week, along with his hen girlfriend.

after classes today, carl and laura and i met to study japanese.. guess how much studying we actually got done?! @_@;;; we started off with watching tennimon.. the only two episodes i own (and they love it as much as i do ^_~) and then we went outside and sat on a tapestry in the shade, and talked for two hours. @_@; afterwards, we went inside and ended up talking to my wonderful wonderful roomate and then we listened to laura-chan play on the piano (she's SOOOO amazing--- she's learning the piano utena song something like "in the garden," IIRC) and carl taught me a bit of karate ^_~ it took us like 20 minutes to say good-bye. @_@;; we're so silly.

bill and jenni and i ate dinner tonite and then shawn (sean?) jenni's husband came along. he's really really cool, and he speaks chinese ^_~ then we were outside talking and i made flower garlands for everyone (except doris and myself), and then after that, i noticed tsuki had been out! she was SO gorgeous.

felischan and i hung out for a bit, and then we watched space invader zim. yes, jan-chan, i think jhonen vazquez is the man, except for the new filler bunny, but i haven't seen the new filler bunny. i LOVE the concept of a filler bunny.. but i must admit, i'm not pro bunny cruelty X_x; my roomate and i were cracking up over everything ^_~ oioi-- when we're at acen and watching your band and all, (SWEK!) you'll have to tape it, and can we watch it later? ^_~ oooooo that'd be fun. ^_~ i need to come up with something sparkly to make for us to eat and get HYPER as noodles ^_~

arg, damn contacts. i'm going to go take them out. now i'm off to see the wizaaaaaaaaaaard......

I will not be late to fencing...
Thursday, April 26, 2001 11:00 p.m.

she says AFTER fencing ^^;;;
i guess i should admit, i'm a fence-a-holic, and i'm perpetually late. i've been late to classes once in my entire college career (b/c i was sleeping over ria's house and she was running late ^^;), and i haven't skipped any classes (excluding ghetto math)--- but i'm *always* late to fencing!!!
it's a great thing that i didn't sign up for the classes, and i just do it for fun. speaking of fencing....
laura leant me the second two volumes of utena ^_~ so instead of studying for that extra credit in spanish, i'm watching utena. i must admit, i don't really care much for the art... but the story's starting to grab me.. like crack. aka oniisama e. ^^;

tomorrow, laura and carl are coming over and we're going to study for the japanese exam. yeah right. ^^; we're probably going to end up doing something inane and silly, like climbing trees. oh how i love to climb trees! heeee--- there's this warm-up exercise (i can NEVER spell that word on the first try X_x;) in voice that goes "oh how i LOVE to sing" in an arpeggio...and i just imagined "oh how i LOVE to climb trees!" instead. ok, i need to calm down. ^^;;;

today was normal and ordinary. i slept REALLY good though. i had some weird dreams involving a talking cat, my fencing instructor teaching japanese, and... B-san, oddly enough, considering he hasn't talked to me in ages.

i skipped breakfast, for the first time ever, @_@;, and walked to class with my roomate. anthropology was actually quite interesting. (i mean, of course it's interesting, but today we didn't use text and really have to worry about cramming everything the teacher said for a test or anything, b/c our FIFTEEN page paper (can you imagine me staying on topic for fifteen pages?!?!) is our exam. i went to biology, and in our 200-person class, my teacher calls my name (first and last! @_@;) and asks me to come to the board and draw a rabbit. @_@;;;;; he was going to draw a food chain. anticipating that he was going to have the bunny eaten.. @_@;; i said no. that and i think he was just being silly. he drew a squirrel afterwards and had the squirrel be eaten by a fox. SURPRISINGLY, and i say surprisingly b/c this guy is NOT your typical animal lover. he's you're basic "let's test on animals because they don't have feelings" kind of person... SURPRISINGLY enough, he admitted vegetarian diets are healthiest for humans (they're energy effecient)-- and he said he wasn't advocating vegetarianism in any way, or that he'd stop eating meat.. but he did admit it's healthy ^_~ so, today's lesson is "eat your veggies" ^_~

oi veh.. what else. after that, i had lunch w/ bill and a bunch of mary fousters, and jenni came along. bill and i talked about my little recent coincidences, and he talked about his coincidences, and talked about all kinds of other things (dreams and such). then i took a nap. a nice, happy, well-deserved little bunny-girl nap. ^_~ oishiikatta desu! (i guess that's very incorrect, since you can't really eat a nap, how can it be delicious?! but i still say bishounen (like hotohori or seiya or andy-oishii) are oishii bish ^_~)

i think the exchange students find my speaking french, spanish, and japanese cute. ^^; h-san always laughs when i mis-hear what she says.. like she said something like "ichi-go-someting or another" and i heard "strawberry" instead of "1 5" @_@;;; stuff like that. that and i said "DAIIIIIIsuki!" like sakura-chan today ^^;;; and N-san thought that was the funniest thing.. @_@;; and she said "everything's pretty to you" @_@;;; (well, the sky WAS pretty! and all those squirrels, and the green grass, and... yeah, you get the message. ^^;)

stephen-san! okaeri nasai!!! ^_~ (welcome back) hope your exams went well-- i'm sure they did.

and the naughty zoot award goes to rebo-chan, for that god awful april fool's joke that somehow got around the internet and convinced poor jackie-san and everyone else that CN was going to air sailorstars w/ "Kyra Lights" X_x;;; don't EVEN joke about that.

i guess i'll go back to watching utena.. demo.. i have another volume of CCS and five hours of slayers to get through before monday.. @_@;;;;; and laura-chan's little FY collection is here.. hmmmmmmmm...... but i've seen all of FY ^^;

i should probably write iskandar ^^; i keep forgetting.. and jan-chan too. and during exam weeks, when we have quiet hours in the dorm (dammit! X_x;) i guess i'll work on my fanfic ^_~ my crazy crazy fanfic, that i've been encouraged to continue by stephen-san ^_~ thank you stephen-san! :)

oioi-- konnyanichiwa felis-chan! proud owner of her very own pita! ^_~ go visit-- felis.pitas.com ^_~ i love my roomate. ^_~ even if she is perfect and artistically inclined and wonderful... ^_~ i need to go to bed...

feelin' good!
Wednesday, April 25, 2001 10:06 p.m. wow-- i really like this buddhism stuff. i mean, it doesn't take presidence (sp?) over my voices, or tsuki.. the things in life that really matter... ^______^ but it's just about hoping for other peoples' happiness, and being happy. but it's not happy at the expense of other people.. and it's taking and giving and being at one with the universe b/c everything's related. it makes sense..
there were TOO many coincidences today to even.. where to start?
ok-- the thing that made my day today (one of the millions-- everything makes my day, when you're easy to please like this bunny girl is ^_~) was the moon coming out. i mean, i wasn't expecting to see tsuki for another day or so. another thing-- it was raining this morning.. and i said "well, at least tomorrow it'll be sunny, or later today!" and the sun came out! and so did the stars today! life's just beautiful! at lunch, ms. mina fixed my meal w/o barley (she went out of her way to make sure i didn't have too much barley, b/c for some reason, i don't like barley)-- and that really touched me. and i was thinking about being charismatic after music class today, and i walked by a few people, smiled (as usual ^^;) and one guy stopped, took off his headset, and called me after i'd passed him and asked me what my name was! i mean-- he said "i know you from somewhere-- or i should know you"-- and it was the nicest thing. so i told him my name (i hate my name X_x;) and said "but if you can't remember that, call me "bunny" ^_______^ what else funny happened?
last night, i was thinking about this guy that i really really like. i mean, as in seeing myself twenty million years from now dedicated to him because he's SO openminded, and SO friendly, and SO nice... and i was looking up at the building i knew he lived in, and me and lyle are walking along.. and there he is. And the flower petals were flying-- it was so romantic, 11:00pm, flower petals everywhere-- and he tells me where his room is. it doesn't end!
it's not necessarily clairvoyance on my part, but... just things happening that make more sense.. maybe it's b/c i'm becoming more and more aware of who i am. i mean, a few months ago, i didn't know who i was. i knew i had a best friend who was my other half and i threw that all away. and i knew that i have friends now that can't replace her. and i knew that i did horrible things that i didn't remember (b/c i have a bad memory-- that's part of my blood type, and i can't change it!).. and i knew that i wasn't happy in greensboro b/c i didn't listen to my voices.. and i just was DOWN! and things just got worse and worse.. but the environment i'd created for others around me became theraputic and i accumulated a lot of people who KNOW me who are nice to me! and now i have wonderful friends! granted, i don't always get along w/ my roomate (but i really love her anyway ^_~ we knew each other in a past life or something.. we met each other at animazement 99? but briefly.. she drew a picture for a friend of mine when i went to fall asleep during the pokemon movie.. @_@;;), and granted i can be QUITE the bitch.. but i know so many wonderful people! being cheerful pisses a lot of people off-- but i think deep down inside, it's a gift i give people that they like or they appreciate somewhere, and it helps them give out cheerfulness.

so-- A-san, my best friend, daisuki na tomodachi (the only person who i know has read this thing anyway-- i'm glad to know it's not just me out there!!! me and lyle ^_~)-- i take what you wrote in your blog in the best possible way, if i'd known a lot of the things you recently confessed, maybe things would have changed. (i would have NEVER let you cry for that long alone, no matter how angry or upset or "indifferent" i was at you) i love you very much, i don't mean to be "cruel," and taking a ride home w/ that guy was a bad idea in the first place. and i should have listened to you instead of ditching you b/c i was lonely and wanted a romantic relationship. you know i do stupid things for "love" or the want of it. well-- did. dave was the last mistake i'll ever make. and i'm sure you'll be proud of me for it. i guess i'm the kind of person who never learns until she gets burned. (and i'm still a pyro ^_______^ remember the good ol' days when we'd burn candles and roast slim jims, and pickles when i became veggie?)
moving along-- i don't recall the story the way you recall it. then again, it could be my horrid memory. i didn't want to be as close as we were, yes, but i didn't want to break everything off and not talk at all. and "didn't have the time" referred to my mother not taking me home for passover this year, not you. you see, i like these paragraph breaks you get in word, and all the other text programs, just not pitas. and i don't know html, and no one has explained how to do these damn paragraph breaks!!! X_x; i did learn not to use the sideways v things tho.. @_@;
as for mama saying she doesn't love you anymore, you have to consider also all the things she's going through and she's not in the best of health. when you're not in the best of health, you'd say some pretty adverse things too. hell-- when i'm sick, i say some pretty crazy things, or i just cry for an hour in a bathroom stall @_@; or lock myself in my closet. not healthy. @_@;; anyways-- mama loves you. i'm sure despite all the things i've done to you, she still loves me. remember when you told me my mother really loves me, when i didn't know she did? maybe you need someone to tell you that too. mama's a wonderful person, but she has different expectations than what you have, as you have different expectations of other people. there's a compromise somewhere. i'm just suggesting you try to remedy things w/ her before it's all over, because someone dying when there's hostility is very rough. when you thought if i was going to refuse you'd kill yourself, you also knew somewhere (subconsiously, at least) that i'd feel horrible for not resolving things.
i'd like to think i'm the same person i always was, just an evolved form. (think pikachu to raichu! DAME DAME!! X_x; *whacks self*) but everything happens for a reason-- and if i've changed, it's for the best. i'm glad you're happier now, because i've only wanted your happiness. i will always love you. and i never said anything otherwise-- if i did, i take it back, with the most sincere apologies.
i'm listening to datte datte daisuki dakara from tenshi ni narumon, sipping genmaicha, and.. wondering where the noodles my roomate is!

you *knew* this was gonna happen....
Tuesday, April 24, 2001 04:34 p.m. oy veh. what a day! *takes deep breath in, deep breath out* while she is excited about her trip to japan in five months, give or take a few days, our heroine is still extremely stressed out because she decided three languages at once is *not* an impossible journey to embark upon. HA! you linguist you! ok, third person over. speak in first person again, damn you! ^^ yeah, i guess i'm in a weird mood. i almost wrote moon. X_x; speaking of tsuki.. i miss her. tsuki, come out again soon! ;_; i can't DEAL with the fact that she disappears while she's waning... at least she appears again in a few days, hopefully. i like having someone to talk to when i walk around alone at night. i used to be scared, but now i'm not ^_~ i guess i'm that little bit stronger. ********** don't even, you briney spears fans. X_x; ********** i think i had food poisoning last night. caf food SUCKS, especially when they don't consider us vegetarians having feelings. i mean-- they flat out REFUSE to take a veggie day where no meat is served (for the all-american meat-out) b/c ppl like J-ikun would die. X_x; but there have been MORE THAN ONE occasion where the caf has served very limited veggie options. at least before there was some sort of salad bar. last night, there was NO lettuce! NO carrots! no tomatoes! (not cooked w/o meat, anyway)-- and NO broccoli! (nyo!) and *gasp* no alfalfa sprouts! my poor fencing arms! (they'll bruise!) so i bought a sandwich w/ pocket change. and i puked it up. sorry for the gory details, but it happened. X_x; and then i slept for two hours. i *hate* our cafeteria... but i love the workers so much.. they all felt so horrible for how i felt last night, and the manager was like "you could have told me and i would have fixed you something else"-- i mean, he doesn't get paid for that, but he'd do it. that's the kind of person i want to be. i want to be just like you, D-san :) you're amazing. so today, after having trouble sleeping last night (you know, i never had problems before... X_x;) i went to my linguistics class, after not having done the readings.. b/c i was sick last night. ^^;;; and she let us go early, and h-san and i went to get some hokahoka koohi! :) oishikatta desu!!! (even tho it was mostly sugar and cream ^^;;;; i guess i haven't changed much...) then i had biology, sat w/ N-san. she calls me "usagi" to H-san when they talk in japanese ^^;; hazukashiiii.... demo... that's how i'm remembered now. everyone calls me "bunny" or "usagi" or "toki" (i learned that word today-- it's korean for rabbit), or "conejita" (spanish teacher). it makes me feel all warm inside. some girl brought in her rabbit today-- she said gum-chan didn't want to stay inside and watned to go to class. kawaiiiiiiii! i want a bunny.... i have my eye on this rabbit called "raoul" in chicago.. i think it's something like chicago.hrs.org or something. ^^; gee, i love my ability to recall things on command. (i used to never be able to remember the spanish words for left and right until i learned the japanese words for left and right.. and now i can't rmember those! X_x;) don'cha just love my grammar? ^^;;; my voices talked to me again yesterday. it's really neat ^^ they told me, "you don't want to take a shower right now" yesterday morning when i got up.. so i didn't. and five mintues later, a fire alarm went off. now, had i been in the shower, i'd have had to go out in a towel. X_x; what else...? i had lunch w/ N-san, and after lunch i went shopping. found a good-bye card for my roomate, and a kawaii little panda ^_~, and a new earring (a swirly!), a sympathy card for a friend, some candy bars for J-chan (who cut my hair ^_~ and who's going to cut it again...), and... um, i guess that's it. then i had tutoring. learned a lot of new words today. ^_~ then i check my e-mail. the indiana list is going through a big rant about free speech and WW2 etc.. X_x; it's basically flogging a dead horse. (i HATE that expression!) oh--- that reminds me-- i finished reading that book, Wicked! it was SOOOOOOOOOOO good! :) i'll never be able to see the wizard of oz again w/ the same ideas... but next time i see the wizard of oz, i won't be tripping ^^; ne? gosh it's cold here. my hands are freezing. there's a huge gojira and a huge pink fluffy dragon on campus. or should that be "there are"? X_x; ok, english majors, put your thinking caps on! oioi-- janchan, is your band called Swek? @_@;; and question to think about-- if you acknowledge that someone's crazy, do you still take everything (s)he takes as his/her true feelings? i think that's all for now. bai bai!

ohayou!
Sunday, April 22, 2001 03:43 p.m. *aaaaaaaaaaaall better!* (in bubble's voice ^_~) my roomate and i have semi-cleared things up ^^; yesterday, i didn't do SQUAT! i read some more of my book ^_~, i watched vol 3 of tenshi ni narumon (NOELLE IS SO CUTE I COULD DIE!), i drew pictures until my brain died... and (what else?) i played Dr. Mario (on nintendo 64.. us die-hard NES fans who LOVE dr. mario have to check everything dr. mario related ^^;) for two straight hours w/ the girl next-door. oh my GOD it was SO great, talk about stress reliever! and there's this new game which, if you ask me, is for pussies.. it's "defeat three flashing baddies" basically... so you make a b-line to the flashing viri and try to kill them. of course, i'm on level "difficult" b/c i'm such an experienced *cough cough* player, and she's on level "easy" because she'd never played dr. mario before... and i STILL whooped ass, despite the fact that my screen was moving faster and there were more viri in the way... ooooh my, how i do love me some dr. mario! :) i've decided to send a picture of sara, noelle's sister, as my black moon art picture. wonder what everyone'll think about that. i'm OFFICIALLY going to Acen! (i love saying "officially" ^^;) i bought my plane tickets yesterday. (and i'm being a gopher-bunny-badge-r). i'm soooooo excited. i get to fly up midway, and ride around bloomington indiana for a day or two, and do some interpretive dance and ^_~ yeah. i'm REALLY excited about jan's band playing. i'll be their little groupie bunny ^_~ i wonder how i'm going to pack a week's worth of clothing in my tiny bookbag.. maybe i'll just re-wear clothes. that always works ^^;;; (just not underwear.. that's a nono) well, i'm going to go start my day now ;) baaaaaaaai!

what the noodles?!
Wednesday, April 18, 2001 03:10 p.m. yesterday was the funniest day in my entire life.. i don't think i've ever laughed so much at something that wasn't a joke or supposed to be funny or i should have gotten it years ago and it's funny because of that, or it's funny b/c y-san almost got stuck in an elevator funny... i guess it's just the irony of life that makes me laugh. i mean-- yesterday, it SNOWED! a week ago, it was too hot to breathe, and now it's SNOWING outside?! and the wind's been crazy... and that in and of itself on top of the green leaves and everything blooming was too funny. then i get a letter from my dear friend nuriko saying that he was so touched i remembered. apparently, the universe wanted me to wish him a happy birthday, b/c i, being the infinitely silly bunny girl, completely forgot, and we hadn't talked in forever... ^^;;; anyway-- i sent him an e-card that day telling him to write me once in a while.. and he took it as a happy birthday! ^_~ i just found the irony funny ^_~ what else? i'm sure there are lots of things. D and i are getting into arguments, mostly b/c she was blow drying her hair while i was trying to SLEEP this morning.. and she doesn't talk about what she odesn't like. but she DID tell me last night that sitting on her bed was a no-no.. despite the fact that one of her (rather unhygenic, might i add) friends sits on her PILLOWS. X_x; and she never opens the blinds or windows, even when it's pretty outside.. and she hasn't cleaned out my hot pot when she cooks in it. i'm SO irritated with her right now! oh well. c'est ma vie. oi-- jan, that poem you wrote on your blog yesterday... are you serious?! and stephen-- ganbatte ne! :) and mearl-chan-- BE NICE TO YOUR GRANDMOTHER! (of all people!)-- that's assuming you read this anyway ^^; i'm going to go walk through peabody park and then head off to japanese.. ja ne!

Sunday, April 15, 2001 08:05 p.m. i guess home is where my stuff is, b/c i find myself calling UNCG home. ^^; i enjoyed my stay at home, but i don't feel as healthy and genki as usual b/c i guess i was exposed to a lot of bread-y food, and not too many veggies.. ^^; and i have a ton of homework to do for classes.. including a poster project on rabbit calcivirus or vhd.. which i think is really horrible.. the way people look at killing rabbits objectively and don't even consider their feelings b/c they're "destructive." it makes me cry... the idea that there are people whou just don't care... my friend's mom just died...granted she's not on the best terms w/ her mom, but i'm sure that makes things worse. and i'm sitting beside someguys in the computer lab who're looking at girls objectively too.. that irritates me.. then again,it's sex that drives 99.9% of all men. i could be wrong,but someone needs to prove me wrong, dammit! i played on a gameboy camera today.. it was a lot of fun.. what elsedid i do this weekend?! um... i can't think now.. oh yeah!! i watched a lacrosse game..i wanna play lacrosse!!!! anyways, i need to go,bye! :)

Raindrops on Roses and Whiskers on Kittens..
Thursday, April 12, 2001 02:39 p.m. Yeah, i'm in a singy-mood ;) Things to be happy about. today could have been SO much worse than it actually was. on the way to the caf, some guy was blowing dirt and debris from the fountain, and some of the dirt got in my eye! i had my contacts in, and it hurt SO bad.. i was really upset, b/c i couldn't go back to my room.. and my friend J comes up and he's like "what's wrong?" and i'm all pissy and saying "some asshole is blowing dirt and it got in my eye etc etc" and he had eye drops and it made everything a million gazillion times better. so-- i mean, even when things go bad, they get better.. you always have to tell yourself these things. last night was really interesting. after i went to the library after japanese class, i finished my 15 page paper (which actually was about 12 or so) and I ate dinner w/ my friends.. and I called my friend P. P came over, and we hung out, got some snacky food, and some jelly bellies... and we sat out by the fountain for about 20 minutes eating jelly bellies. he likes the pears as much as i do. then we hung out some more, helped in a surprise b-day party for one of my neighbors, and other stuff.. and then we went to go blow those dandelions' seeds. on my markerboard, i wrote "gone wishin'" which i thought was terribly clever. and of course, that caused me to laugh for a long time.. until i saw some really mean guys tearing up this beautiful flower tree and using the flowers as "snowballs"-- it was so mean! i thought i was going to cry.. but i didn't. it's just some people have no respect, you know? me and P went wishing and hanging out for a while.. laying under a dogwood tree and looking at the sky and the bright pink clouds against the navy almost purple background.. it was really amazing.. and the grass was uncomfortable, so we went closer to the fountain under some tree that apparently shed acorns b/c we had them all over our asses when we got up ^^; it was so nice, just being out there, watching two stars, the clouds, the leaves, and talking. i think i've finally found someone i can bond with in the sense of being close to someone that is mature on many levels, but at the same time really immature and likes to do silly things and be a kid. it's so nice, not having to be inhibited or worry about what other people think.. because we think we're just great, and i enjoy his company and he enjoys mine.. and there's no real ouside of friendship relationship, so there's no expectations. it's really wonderful. the moon came out around 12:30... i was freezing at this point, and wanted to go in, but the moon came out.. and i'm weird when it comes to the moon.. i love watching her and being around her. it's crazy, i guess. i saw the man in the moon, actually.. he was really laughing.. b/c tsuki no usagi's ears were in shadows last night. the moon was yellow/orange.. i told P that i talked to the moon sometimes, b/c she was someone very close to me... and he understood and didn't question or laugh or think it silly. i'm really amazed ^_~ i'm looking forward to japan too.. japan will be a lot of fun. right now, i need to go and do obligatory stuff.. like taxes and such.. you know how the real world goes. oh well ;) kirakira! :)

i hate headaches X_x;
Wednesday, April 11, 2001 06:58 p.m. itai itai itai! i'll be ok, i'm just a bit uncomfortable. today's been pretty uneventful.. instead of doing homework or whatever between classes, i worked on my paper. 12 pages of... linguistic anthropology. i love linguistics ^^; i just hate the markedness model. you hear me, carol myers-scotton! i think your markedness model SUCKS! um.. well, i don't feel too strongly about it.. but it is really annoying using something that you don't believe is theoretically useful.. i mean, it deals so much w/ psychology, which in and of itself is kinda useless for understanding everyone, because not everyone fits into categories. we as humans like to categorize others.. like everything has to be in set little groups.. like gender. you're either male or female. when you have shemales, that bothers people. X_x; what's the big deal! you can't categorize all men in men categories that you place men into.. like saying all men are really strong would be a bad stereotype b/c there are weak men, etc etc.. ok i'm rambling. but i'm entitled to ramble, as this is my pita ;) wai wai! ^^ what else.. i think i'm finished w/ my paper, tengo hambre, j'ai faim, anaka ga suita... i'm hungry ^^;;; so i'm heading to the caf RIGHT NOW and i'm going to get some "yummy scrummy grub" ^_~ oishiiiiiiii ^_~ today one of the workers, i told her "you take such good care of me" because she always makes sure i want what she's giving me, etc.. and she said "you take good care of me too, smiley"-- and it made me realise that it's a really symbiotic relationship.. ok that's not the right word.. but if you're nice to people, and you offer to help people, they APPRECIATE it.. and they treat you accordingly. i think the entire caf staff knows me by name (or at least face, or nickname ^_~) and they're very nice to me. so it's cool... it took a long time to get here, but i don't want to go back to dreading going to the caf b/c there were workers who didn't care if you got food poisoning or what not. anways... ^^; i'm heading off now, no more ranting.. and maybe i'll get to e-mail today! :) iskandar- if you're reading this, i promise i'll write tonite if i can get on a computer. jan-chan, if YOU're reading this, i'll get back to you when i have three or four hours, b/c that e-mail you sent me is SO DAMN LONG! :) heee :) kirakiratte kudasai! (please sparkle ^^;)

ohayou!
Monday, April 9, 2001 08:16 a.m. it's too early in the morning for me to be awake.. i have a major spanish exam today, and i spent about two hours last night conjugating (b/c we have about 20 irregular verbs we haven't covered in about 10 different tenses X_x;) not that i don't LIKE conjugating.. regular verbs are fun to conjugate. i guess it's that sick word game obsession i have. but when you don't know if you're conjugating correctly, it gets frustrating and you can't figure out the puzzle. anyways, on to my life ^_~ yesterday, i was going to update my pita, but i decided to check other peoples'... and i ran across my former best friend's pita. her grandmother (i'm assuming it's the grandmother that i knew) just had a stroke. it seemed a lot like she was taking out her anger at her grandmother farther than she should-- i mean, saying you ABHOR someone and you avoid her at all costs!? anyway, after reading mama had a stroke, i was crying.. and then i cried knowing that her granddaughter, who she has been trying to make amends with, hates her. of all people that she should be angry at! her grandmother LOVES her SO much. and she doesn't want to go now b/c she doesn't know if her grandmother will know or not if she's there. god-- if i had to opportunity, i'd go see her, regardless of how ill we were at each other. i'd rather my friend be mad at me (i mean, i'm sure she puts me on that list of "people to avoid at all cost" and people that she abhors because i was a horrid friend to her) than her grandmother. and her mother, who completely ignored her for several years over her little internet boyfriend. it's SUCH a mess. i've been debating whether or not to e-mail her, even though it's technically none of my business, because she can't hold a grudge, and hate her grandmother years after she's died like she did her father. there's a HUGE difference between her father and her grandmother. it's such a mess. i'm still weird about e-mailing her, but the voices in my head are saying "do it! do it!" and the last time i didn't listen to my voices.. i ended up really regretting it. moving along.. i got a phone call last night from kurisukun! :) i love kurisukun.. he makes me feel better when i'm down.. and i was quite down this weekend b/c i missed the theatre production of "cinderella" that they've been working on for the past semester... and my mom didn't take me home this weekend because she "didn't have time"-- preparing sader and all. i _WANTED_ to be there!!! X_x;;; and then she tells me i ahve to find my own ride home for this upcoming weekend. i don't want to come home. but i have to because relatives from up north are coming down. X_x; and my computer at home is down, because one of my mom's friends knows everything about computers, and said that the problem w/ our computer is that i put too much shit on it, and therefore she has to reformat the hard drive. she does, and now it doesn't work b/c she didn't check before hand if the disk drive that installs information was working. X_x;;;; if my mom won't get the computer fixed, i'll be computer access-less. X_x; not that i'm addicted or anything.. ^^; i just use it to keep in touch w/ people.. and i'm going to miss my friends so bad... yesterday i typed up my stuff for my linguistics paper.. i have 10 pages double spaced if you include my dialogues. wow. it has to be 15, and i haven't started working on my information really yet.. i'll have to finish it up tonite b/c i won't have time until this weekend.. and it's due thursday. just a rough draft tho, so it'll be ok. what else... i'm listening to maaya-chan now (big surprise) and kurisukun-- i am NOT a fangirl!!!

i love having a life..
Saturday, April 7 11:59 am yeah, i guess that's mean. gomen ne. not really ^_~ i'm actually kinda glad i'm being mean, because I have a life. having a life, in this case, means i don't surround myself w/ people who dislike me openly. basically, joshi and i aren't friends anymore. i didn't want it to happen that way, i just wanted out of the D&D group b/c i didn't like the way dave was treating me, or i thought it was rather frustrating b/c people were mean to me.. and my spatula got kidnapped. that was the final straw. and joshi lied to me about not knowing where it was. anyways, i have my spatula back, and i'm very happy because my friends are wonderful people. in fact, they're so wonderful... i cut my hair last night in a fit of sillyness, a bit of a dare (diana said i wouldn't do it), and it was late at night and i shouldn't have been handling scissors or trusting any magazine w/ jennifer love hewitt on the cover. X_x; so i cut my hair. and it looked SO awful. it was acutally really funny. but it's ok now.. i called jayna this morning (the same girl who was theraputic when i was upset over dave) and she cut my hair. it's REALLY short now.. i mean, faye valentine + manda rin from bis short.. it's nice tho ^^ i love it a lot. it's just bizarre washing my hair.. b/c there's nothing there! tonite i've been doing all that homework i've been putting off doing. tomorrow, it seems, i'll have to do my paper for linguistics rather than tonite b/c diana's computer has issues and won't let me type on it. i'll do it in the comp lab in the library ma~ana. i DID work today tho.. i did my japanese homework, french, bio lab, saw my bio grade (barely a B.. X_x;;;), cleaned my closet, transcribed my linguistics speech... etc. so i did do something. bill and i went for a walk on campus this afternoon.. it was SO gorgeous.. the trees were all blossoming and smelly pretty, and the grass was wonderful too!!! today was so gorgeous. the caf food was terrible though! X_x; i'm missing chris and trevor and curtis and hannah and burandii's play right now tho.. i wanted to go home this weekend to see them. i know they're all wonderful... ;_; my mom called me this morning, and was telling me about the play, and how i need to come home next weekend, etc. family's coming down. X_x; they're having passover this weekend, and no one will take me home! ;_; i'm not homesick.. but i _do_ want to participate in pesah. ;_; oh well. i get to see my dog thursday! i get to see my dog! my dog!!!! kiba!!!! well, i'm tired now. sleepy silliness has overriden the bunny girl (who just died yesterday, mind you. thank you ian! X_x;) but lyle helped me come back to life by wishing me back w/ the dragon balls.. what more could you want in an invisible friend? ^_____^

sleeeeeepy bunny
Monday, March 19, 2001 08:50 p.m. after the weekend from hell, and the day of busy ness... and lots of homework still to do.. the bunny girl emerges victorious, if a bit sleepy. ^^ chris came home from france, so i was really happy to see him and trevor on saturday ^^ i have a seiya UFO doll now wai wai! :) listening to music that's really hyper and bouncy is theraputic on rainy days.. that and jumping in puddles.. puddles were made for bouncing in. my ex was being a total jerk on saturday, and i couldn't really escape him. i wish he'd get the message that i don't care about him anymore, and i wish he'd stop trying to make me miserable. granted, he made me hate myself for a brief period (and i mean BRIEF) and act non-kate-chan-ish.. and he did a lot of horrible things to me and makes me never want to be in a relationship ever again (not that i'd ever be able to be in one ^^;)-- i don't think about him anymore. apparently, he can't get me off his mind, because every time someone says "rabbit" or "star" or "moon" or anything relating to things that i like, he goes nuts. what a total LOSER. and he has a 17 year old girlfriend now, from what i hear-- so why the NOODLES is he bothering me?! i just want him to tell me what i'm doing to bug him, so he'll bugger off. ARGH! i don't let him really get to me tho, b/c i have so much more to bother with.. like harassing carl-san about being 'obake' or hanging out w/ my usual group of grad students at dinner, or fencing. i worked out this morning.. don't feel any different really. got contacts this weekend, so i don't have to wear my glasses anymore, which is nice ^_____^ i also saw the utena movie last night.. oh my NOODLES it was gorgeous!!! i cried so hard, even tho it was completely in japanese.. i actually understood quite a bit of it :) i've also changed my e-mail, effective hopefully as soon as possible-- sillybunnygirl@hotmail.com -- cute ne? :) i'm listening to bis right now.. bis is nice ;) bis encourages all girls to kill yr boyfriend (not really) ^_~

arg! (as in the noise you make when annoyed)
Monday, March 5, 2001 04:24 p.m. i need to learn html.. it'd make my life so much easier, and my entries more readable. X_x i'm struggling w/ the templates and such, so it's more kate-chan-like. oh well. maybe more later. i'm sick, got the snifflies, and there's not much else about life ^^;